Since spoiler tags don’t work in the headers, CW for self-harm. Also discussions of therapy.

So, last week I had an extra-long and painful therapy session to discuss whether or not my drinking (and other less than great habits) had an element of self-sabotage/self-harm to them. There was no immediate conclusion, but just probing the question hurt a lot.

I’m also wondering … I like my therapist a lot, but her approach is emotional rather than behavioural. And I don’t know for sure if that’s what – or all – that I need right now. Certainly delving into stuff has helped take the sting out of things that have been haunting me for decades. But when you have diagnosed depression and likely undiagnosed anxiety, I’m not sure it’s ever possible to be entirely free of the emotional reasons for unhealthy behaviour.

Anyway. I will be on vacation next week and have scheduled a place-holder post. But when I get back I will probably have to investigate some other therapy/treatment options.

How is everyone else doing?